Stir In Me

Have you ever had the experience of being in the car, listening to the radio and a song that is on hits you so hard that you almost have to pull over?

I had somewhat of that experience this morning - except I wasn't in my car! (The car thing has happened to me before though! :)) I was at church - the usual worship time. I love music - so when we sing it is usually my favorite part. Today we sang a song called, "Stir In Me". It is by Todd Proctor - who is probably a really popular worship leader - but I have never heard of him! :) I have never heard the song before either. But in that moment - it hit me like a ton of bricks. Here are the words:

Stir in me a fire that the world cannot explain.
I come to worship You.
Stir in me a passion that my heart cannot contain.
I come to worship You.

Hold me, break me, mold me and make me more and more like You.
I come to worship You.
To love You, fear You, draw ever near You as I worship You.
I come to worship You, Oh Lord.

Keeper of my heart. Author of my days.
Shaper of my dreams. Shepherd of my way.
Take this sacrifice. Take my yielded life.
I come to worship You, Oh Lord.
I'm here to worship You, Oh Lord.

Now, I can't say that I am a big fan of the way it is sung...in happy, upbeat, Christian music style. Although, the worship team at church did a way better job of it than the version I found on Itunes. :) But the WORDS - Dang Gina! They hit me this morning.

It is my prayer - that God would STIR IN ME - a fire and a passion that is HUGE! No more of this everyday blah, blah, blah Christianity. There has got to be more than this - and I am out to find it. And although I am extremely fearful, which is totally not of the Lord, of what it might look like to sacrifice and yield my life...I want Him to break me, mold me and make me more like Him.

I am constantly trying to get myself to truly believe that HE is the Keeper of my heart...since I don't even pretend to know what guarding my heart looks like. That HE is the Author of my days...since the end pages of the book seem scary and so out there. That HE is the Shaper of my dreams...since the dreams that I have come up with haven't panned out all that well. And that HE is the Shepherd of my way...since I can't see my hand in front of my face most of the time without Him guiding me.

More than anything it gave me words for what my heart has been silently saying. I want my life to be one big worship service!!! So - this is my prayer.